Ive been having such a hard time sleeping lately. I have no idea why or where the change is coming from, but I havent been able to fall asleep until 4 or 5 the past couple nights. I havent been eating alot lately either and Ive just been irriated with everything and everyone. This is not like me and Im wondering what this is all from. Ive been stressed out about school and finding a second job for the summer.. I guess everything is just piling up. Plus I havent baked in over 2 weeks so that is not making my situation better, thats the way I get my frustration out. Normally I would go for a run, but I left my sneakers at home.. luckily I'm going home tomorrow for Easter break so that will be nice to relax for a couple days. I need some wine. And a massage.

Nose Piercing?

I can't decide if I should get one or not. I love it, I think it would look really good on me (not to be narcissistic or anything). However, it seems as though every other girl who is into hard core or punk rock has a nose piercing and I dont want to seem like Im trend follower (could be guilty of that already). Im leaning towards yes at the moment and would get it this weekend. Also im nervous it would hurt or scar... could potentially be talking myself out of this one.

Ipswich

So traveling to places around New England makes me really happy. I love random trips and fun stuff like that, Im the worst history nerd too. This past weekend I went to Ipswich to Cranes Castle, most amazing scenery there. Huge mansion overlooking the ocean, just a beautiful place in general. I need to get out more, only 4 weeks left of school then Im going to Newport RI and Cape Cod (Ive NEVER been there!). So excited!

Missing Boston

Break was stupid, I cant wait to go back into Boston. Whenever I come home I miss being able to walk out the door and disappear into the crowd for a while. Not to mention missing my boyfriend while he stays in the city, but only one more day and Ill be back in there! Worked for a company over break doing clerical shit. I felt like Pam from the Office, which would give me amusement for about 15 mins and then I was bored again. Cant wait for spring to come, I just want to be outside all day long! I hate sitting inside all day, it makes me feel useless on top of all the other great things I think about myself. So much work left to do before break ends, so thats how I plan on ending it. woop woop!

On a good note, I just finished baking Italian Almond Cookies that came out sooooo good! I think that this could be a great start for my future bakery.

Wassup/ Bakery Idea

I love the movie Wassup Rocker.

So glad its the last week before Spring Break! Aside from the obnoxious amount of work Ive been given to do and the fact that Im living in the library to avoid seeing my roomates, Im pretty excited! Things get better with the bf daily however, and Im
getting increasingly happy with getting alone time to listen to music and sketch random things I love. Also my love of wine as increased dramatically. And Cappuccino. Opening a bakery is my new life long goal because I always end up going home from school and baking obnoxious amounts of food, and more recently vegan food! Ive realized that vegan options are so rare and expensive.. so thats going to be part of my bakery too. IF ONLY...

Oh SH*T.

I declared my major today.. Sociology with a minor in Organizational Leadership. I definitely just had one of those "oh shit" moments, like did that just really happen? I love sociology and I want to be a clinical social worker in a few years.. however I am very indecisive and now am questioning if that is what I want to be doing forever. I mean the only other thing I would consider is being a teacher, and there are plenty of teachers who only have a major in Sociology. It will all work itself out I'm sure. At least I hope so.

Also I just ate a whole box of whoppers. ugggghhh.

1930's

Also I am staring to appreciate fashion/ hairstyles from the 1930's. Not sure how I would go about incorporating this style into my wardrobe.. but I think starting with the hair is good. Did a pin up on one side with bangs curled backwards.. almost 80's style. Uggghh I need to work on this much more.

Lovely Boston

This weekend was a great one in the city of Boston. Between going to Newbury St and Harvard Square, there was great food to be eaten and sales to taken advantage of. I tried the best restaurant called the Chili Duck. I'm currently obsessed with Thai food, and this was fantastic. Bought some great stuff from Goodwill on Comm Ave too, if it wasn't for the low status of my bank account I would have spent all my money on clothes, which I need to refrain from doing until all the Spring lines come out for H&M and Urban Outfitters. Im getting progressively sicker of winter, it was 50 degrees on Saturday.. 50!!! Mother nature needs to stop teasing and bring on the warm weather, I'm ready for it and I need it. Winter makes me grumpy and bitchy, not that I want to be.. but I think there's nothing else to be but miserable when your feet are cold and wet from slush and you can feel any of your limbs. One good thing about winter, it gives me a reason to make alot of cookies!!

HATE HATE HATE

When people act like they are better than you and can tell you what to do. Who thinks they have a right to do this? I dont understand why people feel it is their right to be rude to others. I dont get how people can feel so apathetic that they care for no one else but themselves. Maybe I do too much for other people, and maybe I care way too much for the well being of others as well. But I do not think that there is one person in this world who has an excuse for not being compassionate towards another human being. Yeah I get it, people go through some hard shit at times.. but we all have been there. We've all gone through the tough shit and guess what.. we dont take out what has happened to us on other people. Its rude, and senseless. People who do this to others need to take another look at life and realize they aren't God's given gift to the world.

Blahhh

An endless week of mid terms and papers, Im starting to feel like I just go through the days expecting something new and exciting to pop up in front of me. All I do is look and see what I will be eating the next day for dinner, thats it. That is the most exciting part of my day. Having some trouble with my current roomates, and thats never a fun situation. So I decided to seek shelter with my bf, who recently cheated on me with the girl upstairs. Yeah that makes for a fun situation. We sit around watching re runs of The Office, me with thai food usually, him with pizza. I sit on the bed while he sits on the computer.. hours pass, then we go to sleep. Is it just me or is something unusually boring about this? I mean I love relaxing, but do we need to be this relaxed 6 out of the 7 days of the week? I love my life, but please lets try and enjoy it a little more.

High Fashion

The fact that these come out so bizarre seem to amuse me. I cant get enough of fashion, its always changing and it is such a way of expression. Just picked up the latest edition of Vogue, more magazine pages to tack onto the wall.

Who doesnt love reading these?

I have an obsession with reading Post Secret. I think that somehow it makes me feel better about myself.. or maybe Im just infatuated with weird details about other peoples lives.

So Im starting this blog to try and possibly find myself in a world that has no identity. It will be quite the excursion and I hope at the end of this I am at least somewhat amused by what I have to say.